Hiii 👋🏻 I'm Sam! I realized since I made this I have not officially introduced myself.
Firstly, if you couldn't tell...I love pink and I wear it every Wednesday pretty much #onwednesdayswewearpink 😂💕
I'm a recent graduate from cal state fullerton receiving my masters in counseling. My deepest passions are working with grief and loss, teenagers, relationship issues, and self-esteem.
I've worked for two and a half years at a mental health treatment center treating adolescents with mental health and crisis issues. This is truly where I found my love for teenagers. They are very amazing and teach me just as much as I teach them!
For my last year in graduate school I dedicated my thesis to grief and loss. If I sit down and really take a look at my life, I've experienced a lot of loss. Different types of loss: deaths, losses of relationships, friendships, and family, pets, jobs and so much more. Going into my last year of school I lost my dad unexpectedly. I felt lost, hopeless, and depressed. I didn't want to give up and needed some motivation to keep going. I dedicated my thesis to father loss and the father-daughter relationship, and I learned sooo much through it. I hope to one day start a group specifically for fatherless daughters; no one understands the pain of losing a dad like us.
I'm currently in private practice literally as a baby therapist getting my foot on the door, but barely surviving lol. It's hard work getting yourself out there! I'm learning to be more mindful of this journey and am looking forward to each step I take. Please feel free to ask any questions you may have!
I'm in a constant screaming match with myself
I hate myself, I'm better than everyone else
I feel nothing but tinges of guilt & desire - & confusion. Why is it that I'm 10 different people at once, who all hate each other & disagree?
I don't feel like I should. I just feel fucked. I wouldn't care if the people that I'm supposed to love die, or even the people that I say I desire. It's just a mask, because if I were honest about who I am I'd be a sociopath - but why should I care? We all die anyway.
I'll feel overwhelmed, then nothing at all.
It's like my character is so muddled that it all just comes out as nothing. °°°
Deleting soon but i freaking binged and purged tonight and idk. I feel like I'll never be able to go 1 whole week without this crap! I haven't been able to go more than 4 days in littlerally 2 years!!!! I hate this so much. What do I do 😣
[russ - losin’ control]
The stages of falling out of love:
1. You find yourself not wanting to text back. You stop saying goodnight. You can sense it starting to crumble, but you don’t want to admit it yet.
2. They ask you a question, but don’t care about the answer and do whatever they want anyway, not caring how you feel. It’s starting to break off in bigger pieces.
3. You feel like they’re a stranger when they kiss you. Their mouth is unfamiliar. Their arms are too. When you look at them, it’s like you never knew them. It’s completely falling apart now, almost at its breaking point.
4. You no longer see galaxies in their eyes. It has reached the point of no return, and now all that’s left is dust. ” — nothing is permanent (via tumblr) // 6:20 p.m
This girl is worth a million pounds, not only has she been there for me but she has gone out of her way to make sure that I’m okay. She’s gone to extremes to make sure I’m comfortable #bestsister#depression#anxiety
"Creativity - like human life itself - begins in darkness." -Julia Cameron
Imagine if we embraced our shadow? Our dark sides? And what about all the f-d up shhhhh that's happened in our lives?
Would we not have the most powerful tool for creation at our sides?
Could we heal ourselves and our minds?
By tapping into that which seems so dark can actually bring us back to our heart. And actually that's the only place to start.
That's the only choice left. You've hit rock bottom and you've got nothing, your whole life is effed!
I dare you to go there fully
realize divinity's at the center
I've actually done this, truly.
How can I say that?
I've learned to find the good in all
It's a lot easier now for me to stand tall.
I Forgive myself and I forgive others.
No longer blaming things on my past, parents or brothers.
So take the darkness, don't own it or marry it. Use it. Transmute it till there's nothing left.
Then start again. Be renewed. Rise up and be the you that is so TRUE.
Create. Elevate. No more hate. Only LOVE. Love. Love. It's easy...
What would your status be? If you've ever had a battle with depression, you can relate. I believe there's a shift taking place that is leaving us no choice other than to start facing the tough conversations that we tend to avoid in our communities. Mental illness, depression, suicide, sexuality, abuse, and more.
Why are we more accepting of a broken arm than a sick brain? That’s the stigma against depression, says comedian Kevin Breel. Outwardly, Kevin doesn’t seem depressed, but the illness is something he battles daily. In his #TEDTalk , he shares his story to help end the shame and silence around mental illness. “If you think that true strength means never showing any weakness, then I'm here to tell you you're wrong,” he says. “The only way we're going to beat a problem that people are battling alone is by standing strong together,” he says. Watch his talk at go.ted.com/kevinbreel
I'm struggling so much I've been at like a 9 for pain for so long and flaring so bad and I'm sure that something is wrong with my brain and I need some kind of diagnosis????executive disfunction maybe??? I feel like my brain is broken and no one believes me. I don't feel like it's just fibro symptoms I feel all broken up
Remember, we can't picture the life we want and then sit back and expect it to suddenly happen. I know I use to wish for things and imagine having a certain type of life, but was not doing things to achieve that life. We must try to take steps that will help us achieve the pictures of the life we want.
One major reason why I run is to help with my depression. Yes, I suffer from depression. It is not wrong and I'm sick of feeling like its wrong to talk about it or even for people to ask me if I'm doing okay today. Sometimes I wish they would. I have my ups and downs but I deal with it, somehow. Some days are worse than others and sometimes I can't pull myself out of these feelings. And it's also hard to find the energy to run... So I don't. I just wish everyone would stop thinking that depression is a forbidden subject. ITS NOT!!! By no means! I struggle with it and am still learning even after being diagnosed with it many years ago. #beaware#bemindfulofpeople#depression#talkaboutit#dontbeafraidtotalkaboutit#dontletpeoplemakeyoufeelworthless#bestrong#mentalillness#dontbeashamed
I've shared this before, but I sometimes battle depression and anxiety.
It's a battle that has made my walk with God stronger, yet sometimes the days and seasons can be brutal. It impacts work, friendships, my budget, my family, and my dating relationship. Truthfully, there are days in which I'm angry with God for this journey and then there are days where I'm truly thankful for it because it opens doors to loving others and walking in deeper, more meaningful friendships with those who are willing (and healthy) to walk in it.
This isn't a product pitch, but one form of common grace has been these to items by @advocare I tried prescription meds, but I didn't have success. For me, Oasis and Clear Mood helped make it manageable while also adjusting my lifestyle. It doesn't help everyone, so talk with your doctor first.
If you need help, don't be afraid to ask for help. Shoutout to my big sis @lesliegeick for introducing this to me and my aunt, Donna, for encouraging me to utilize it.