A very nice ending to my Friday night today.
And a little self reflection for this past week: I interacted a lot more, I talked a lot, I made new friends, I contributed to things, I gave input. Honestly super proud of myself!! Basically, Year Up has helped me bring me out of my shell, and I just can't thank them enough for that. In just 4 days they made me realize who I am and who I truly want to be. All of my personal private dreams have come true here; being called Dan, people being comfortable with me looking more like a female but still addressing me with "he" pronouns. Being able to adhere to the male dress code, but honestly also being able to adhere to both female and male, so I can dress accordingly to how I feel that day. Year Up has been good to me so far, let's see where it takes me!!
I officially start classes this Monday! And I'm trying to give myself a little personal motivation! Like I'm good! I'll do good! I'll do great! And I may struggle! But it's normal! Everyone will! But I can do this! I can- NO I WILL get through this, you bet your ass Imma graduate in a year and be working full time at a company making $18 an hour man!! Honestly pretty excited ma dudes, a little nervous but I'm guud.
LET'S DO THIS! 🌻🙆🏻
One time after a show Murdoc got very drunk. He pointed at me then one of the security guards escorted me to his trailer. When I got inside, Murdoc gave me strawberries and told me about all the tragedies in his life, stopping only to cry or smoke a joint. Afterwards he said I was a good listener, and not like all the other girls. We hugged, exchanged numbers, and I left. He never called.